I dyed my hair yesterday.
For an hour the bathroom was transformed: the L’Oreal do-it-yourself kit spread out over every available surface, the contours of my face greased with vaseline, purple dye splattering the sink as I contorted to reach every strand.
When I finally emerged from the shower in a haze of chemicals like a butterfly lifting out of its cocoon, my other half took one look and said, “I don’t know why you do it.”
I shrugged and said, “Because.”
But inside my mind was whirring. Why do I dye my hair? Is it boredom, something else? I turned to my trustworthy friend Google but found no answers to explain my behaviour.
Dyeing my hair is an unintentional quasi-annual tradition. A switch goes off inside my head and it’s all I can think about: the transformation, the change.
Who cares if the process is tedious? For a few pounds and an hour of my time, I’ve explored the frontiers of mahogany, chestnut, and yesterday’s experiment: dark cherry. (The verdict’s out so far — I’ll let you know how it settles after a couple washes.)
But why?
We are primed to think about our physical appearance in terms of how others perceive us. Any alterations to our looks – make up, clothes, hair dye – are therefore assumed to be for other people’s benefit. Yet I’m not seeking male attention, nor believe that a new hair colour will make me more beautiful/desirable/noticeable.
The more I think about it, the more I realise that there’s only one possible reason for dyeing my hair: for a change.
Change is a good thing.
I’m a creature of comfort. But every so often I force myself to change, to jolt out of the normal routine to discover other parts of myself. To push myself into reading a new genre, or visiting a new place.
More recently, I’ve broken through my writing block by starting a paranormal romance novel. I’ve never written or even imagined myself writing romance before. But faced with the longest dry spell ever, I wondered: what if I need to write something different?
So maybe dark cherry is the wrong hair colour for me. And maybe this new romance novel will be a complete pile of poo.
But unless I try, how will I know?
Yo. Very old reader dropping in randomly. (Seriously, well done on the site name. My memory is extremely horrible but qazyfiction has popped up in my head a few times in the last few days.)
Good to see you’re still blogging, and haven’t given up on the writing. How’s the paranormal romance going?
Lovely to hear from you and glad I’m in some way memorable, haha :-D
It’s going quite well..! Once this project is out of the way I’m planning on delving back into the Above Ground universe, either with a side novel or getting back into book 2.
I’m kind of planning to get all qazyfiction stuff over onto amharte.com though so it’s all under my own control. Once I get my act together!
Hope you’re well?